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Her Life
31 March 2007
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another day closer to the time that i first step into this world. today is just a normal saturday, doing homework, watching televison programme and doing housework.
my mummy told me that my aunt is going to give birth on the 3rd of April and i wasn't that happy. since my uncle is married, he doesn't seems to remember my birthday anymore. and now he is going a have a child soon so i think that i am not that important anymore. thinking about the past, the people in my family that remember the day that i was born are definitely more than now. the day that they will be remembering is the 3rd of April.
i never think that i am appreciated in coming into this world instead, i am wasting all the resources that are given to me. maybe one day, someone will make me realise the impotance of me and the value of me on this planet.
For @@!:
i didn't ask for anything and i wouldn't ask for anything. i've seen the attitude of yours and i supposed that you misunderstood mine.
still waiting @8:09 PM
30 March 2007
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got to know that my chemistry get a A for CA1 because of my first test which i got full marks. but for the second test, i did very badly so it dragged down the total marks. for girl guides today, we had the ug recycling project and we had to collect newspapers and old clothes. it was very tiring but we did something good and in return for the hard work, we get more CIP points. played netball after the recycling winners are announced and it's more tiring but it's fun. everyone play their parts and i also tried to but due to my height, i did nothing much. teacher also play and i was quite surprised that she can also run with the ball and play well. i think i had to stop now to get more rest because there are many things to be done tomorrow.
For @@!:
i knew that you are trying to avoid it for the way you position yourself. you didn't have the heart to go back the clock so i think that i couldn't do anymore things to help. unless you initiated, i am willingly to accept the fact that we both hate the same thing. we knew that we were afraid of it but we still do it to each other.
still waiting @7:41 PM
29 March 2007
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haiz... my physics test has no hope to pass anymore. i don't know how to do lots of questions and most of the answers were just my guesses. it will be a miracle if i can pass this test so hope that the god will make this miracle happen. nevermind if i fail (n_n).
For @@!:
you may be confident for this test. you may do better for this test. i will prove that this doesn't last.
still waiting @8:57 PM
28 March 2007
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haiz... a very sad day for me because i got back the chemistry paper. i scored so low for the paper and got a B3 for overall. i must work harder for mid- year because i want an A but i already did so badly ='[. had extra biology lesson after school and teacher had forgotten about it so we started late. had forgotten to bring my foolscape pad to school and all my stuffs were inside so didn't manage to hand in the homework. =[
For @@!:
i knew you are very happy that i had these kind of marks. i knew you must be thinking that i can't do well without you. i knew you wished for these for a long time and wanted these to happened deadly. i will prove to you that the happiness that you are having now wouldn't last. this is only a little test, i will prove to you that i will do better in mid- year, even better than what you did.
still waiting @3:50 PM
27 March 2007
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it's so tiring...
a heavy bag+ a long day= tired me
had the geography common test today and i don't think i can do well cause all my answers were really short. a 6 marks essay qestion, i only write a few sentences which is less than half a page, hope that i get all the points in if not i will fail. mummy is going to get my photo for me tonight, hope that i didn't look too ugly, haha. physics test coming up so got to go study and pray hard that i can do well. (n_n)
still waiting @5:29 PM
26 March 2007
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i think i'm still in the blur blur state. everything also 慢半拍 and didn't really understand the lessons. didn't get back biology test paper because teacher haven't mark yet, maybe it's something good for me. having geography test tomorrow, can't remember a thing so i didn't have much hope in getting good marks. (>_<)
still waiting @8:09 PM
25 March 2007
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ermm.. i've got nothing to blog about now. i think i'll be going out later to buy some presents because april is coming.
i really don't know what to type anymore so i think i will end here and let this cute little thing stay with you in my blog.
For @@!:
i don't wish for anything, i also don't know how to accept this. i don't know how to face this so just take me as invisible on that day.
still waiting @11:28 AM
22 March 2007
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got back my e maths quiz result, feel very sad because i didn't do well =[. i think tomorrow can have the chemistry paper back, don't think that i did well. scared that i might fail because i didn't pay attention in class (half asleep). had biology test today, made lots of mistakes and maybe i fail =[. have not been doing well lately, don't why.. haha. hope that miracles will happen and make me do well in the exams =].
For @@!:
the feeling that you are giving me show that i am the one in wrong, i don't feel that it is just a misunderstanding anymore. everything feel so negative, i don't see a chance to recover unless time can be rewind.
still waiting @5:29 PM
21 March 2007
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haiz.. had the chemistry test and i'm quite sad actually because i got lots of questions wrong. tomorrow will be biology test so hope that i can do better and score well. still got a lot of incomplete homework to do so i think this is the most i can post about for today. [T_T]
For @@!:
after all the ignorance, it turns out to be a misunderstanding. i can't brace myself to get your understanding so i think i will let the reality be it.
still waiting @5:53 PM
20 March 2007
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argh.. i'm so tired, but don't what makes me so tired. there's a chemistry test tomorrow and while typing my notes, the computer kept shutting down. i really got no confidence for the test so wish me good luck, really hope to get high marks. i think sleep earlier may help so this post has ended. (>_<)
For @@!:
i tried to be independent, i want to prove that i can do better than what you did. i can show you that i have friends, not only you.
still waiting @9:44 PM
19 March 2007
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Haiz.. first day of term two,a new start. Got to school just like normal, seeing friends just like other school days, nothing new. Ermm.. i don't know how to continue from this already =[. I think i will stop here although it is just a few sentences.
For @@!:
I see no point in continuing our friendship. i may be wrong in the first place but you are too calculative. i can put down all our unhappy memories but i don't see you forgetting them instead, you bring it all up. if you wish to continue this, i wouldn't mind, i can just pretend not to see you but please remember, not everything can.
still waiting @7:40 PM
18 March 2007
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heyy.. i'm blogging again but normally, not like the posts of yesterday. ok.. this is the last day of march holiday and i'm still in holiday mood. (-_-) zZz
in the morning, went out with my aunt to shop around the gaint at tampines. As usual there's something bad happened, i don't want and don't know how to blog about it so i think i will keep it to myself.. haha. (>_<)
waiting for food now and it is already quite late to have dinner. mummy is sick today and after we came home, she slept so nobody initiated to have dinner. you may think that i should went to buy right? (*_*)
ermm.. i think i should end here. maybe i should finish up my homework and pack my bag for tomorrow. don't know when will i be posting after this so people, stay tuned. (n_n)
For @@!:
i don't think that i will initiate tomorrow so if you want this to carry one, i wouldn't mind. by the way, i don't wish to see this happening but i can't go on with pretending. hope that we can cherish our friendship even more after all,i treated you as a friend.
still waiting @8:16 PM
17 March 2007
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another post today.
posting without reason again.
i am again feeling lost.
lost in time, the happy times in the past.
the time that i am longing for.
maybe it is something that i am always longing for.
instead of something it maybe somebody.
the somebody that have never even exist in my life.
in lifeless life that i am living.
the only lonely world that i am living in.
the feeling of loneliness and emptiness in me.
trying hard to empty my memory.
the unhappy memories that had been stored.
its storing space has been filled.
filling with all my past, the happy past.
everything was left in the past.
leaving me in the world that i am in.
still waiting @9:05 PM
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休息了两天
觉得迷失了自我
只剩一天的我不知去向
昨晚的我把自己弄伤
现在的我觉得更痛
失去自我的我
没有方向
...
still waiting @12:31 PM
16 March 2007
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Yo... i'm back, actually i'm already back yesterday but too tired to blog =p.
First day of gg camp, we went to pulau ubin and i thought that taking the bumboat will be very scary but it is actually a nice experience. Walking around before cycling and i admit that i cycle dangerously.. haha =D. I kept lacking behind then i keep putting my legs down and i got to know of a cartoon which i didn't hear before. Cycling in the rain was fun but my bag got wet and i was soaking wet =[. Back in school, watch the horror which i have seen before and we have treasure hunt.
For the second day, we stayed in school to have games and do some patchwork. I remembered during the patchwork, i have to undo my finishing patch which is so sad ='[. Had fun in the games like water bomb and the songs and cheers. Campfire in the night, i learn to dance and i think that i can swim to Malaysia with that.. lol =D. Didn't sleep much because that the fan above me was spoilt which it's really warm, the mosquitoe bites were itching me.
Last day of camp, played musical chairs and i got drawn on my face. The markers made my face very itchy and some more, i got mosquitoe bite onmy face =[. The sponge game is fun and after that, we take some photos before going home =].
I woke up really late today. Got to try finishing all the holiday homework before enjoying for the last two days. So i think i better end here =l.
For @@!:
pretence can't solve everything. i hope that i can forget everything but i can't hide that i don't agree with you and your smile pissed me. 你灿烂的笑容在我眼里不再是单纯, 而是隐藏着邪的微笑.
still waiting @3:36 PM
11 March 2007
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Let me start with what happened yesterday and the word to descibe it is "cursed". I went to my uncle house to have dinner last night and again, there were crabs so i was happily eating away. Everything went fine until i found a cut on my thumb, not very deep at first so i continued eating until i was bloated. I take a closer look at my thumb and remembered that it happened before although the cut is not at the same place. In my opinion, it can be a curse for eating crabs but i think i will continue to have it because i may not remember it for long. =P
Shopped at 3 places with my family today to find a jacket that i like but in the end, lots of useless stuffs bought instead. First is compass point, learn a few science facts there which i cannot remember anymore. Next, we went to vivo city and saw a new show filmed about make up or don't what there which is hosted by kym ng and the don't know who. Finally, went to plaza singapura and bought lots of things at daiso again. Was about to buy a nike jacket but decided to shop again tomorrow to have more choices. I think i saw don't who at plaza singapura, maybe is the new specs that caused me to see things. (@_@)
I've already wore the specs for about 2 days and i'm still very unuse to it. I think this will be all for today. =]
For @@!:
I don't think there is a need for me to oblige in what you want. I may not be in a standard that you expect so please don't expect me for that standard.
still waiting @9:48 PM
09 March 2007
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Forgot something that makes my day. I've collected my new specs today. It's a combination of blue and yellow, the colours are not blend together so don't try merging them and imagine.
I think i will for "@@!" onwards to represent the person that spoke the 3 word type of words to me.
For @@!:
You may think that is an ugly combination but please respect my decision. I labelled you as my friend but i don't know what you think of me. I hate your reactions on my decisions, you don't even think about it before responding. If you happen to know who i am talking to, i can tell you that its not you. If you are sure that its you, please don't be angry or get people to beat me up, for that, i hate think bad about you even more.
still waiting @4:52 PM
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I admit that i'm lazy and i took too long a time to blog since the last post. Last 2 days were the Sec 3 camp so its not possible to blog and before that, i'm too tired to even on my computer. The following paragraphs will explain what is going on briefly and i think there will be lots of typing error so bear with it people. I will skip Monday and Tuesday since it is like normal school time so i'm start with the Sec 3 camp.
First day of the camp, had a personality talk in the morning. The report about my personality is so true about me although i don't agree with the good points that the report has because i don't have those good thing. After the talk, we went to the hotel and have the social etiquette workshop. The speakers are funny, it's not like what i've imagined and we also had our dinner there. Something really funny happened at our table which resulted in someone changing a name. Back in school is the enterprise talk which i don't like at all and heavy supper before lights out.
Second day is the Kent Ridge trail, happy and sad things happened. Had something like amazing race where we run around the place and it's fun. Really thankful for the happy memories during the camp.
Friday, last day of term1 before the 1 week holiday. Got back my progress report book, i think that my result is very good already, as long as i don't fail. However, i got a B4 for chinese although i knew it long before, it's quite sad to see it black and white. It's only term 1, still a long way to go.
I'm sorry that the following maybe insulting, if you cannot stand it please click on the red cross and the top right hand corner before you scroll down.
To people who cannot tolerate me or people who cannot even try to tolerate me:
"I may cause alot of trouble for you and you may think that i'm an idoit. You may think that whatever i do or say is nonsense in your eyes or ears and sad to say, it's me. You may not agree with me and my actions, but i'm not brainless or somebody with no limit. When i reached my limit, i will just show the extreme and you may think that i am idoitic. Many people don't really know me and let me tell you that i'm very scared of 3 word type of words, e.g." ---- ---- --------". Once i heard one of those 3 word type of words, i can break down. My sis once said the 3 word type of words to me, i chase her out of my room, i threw all her stuffs out. I've another one during the camp, i tried to pretend that i never hear it at first but i really cannot hide it anymore. So if you see me behaving differently, don't care about it. Lastly, don't try to think that i'm as good or capable as you, your standard and mine is different. My style is definitely not the same as you so please don't think i that i work the same way as you or i can produce the same thing as you did. "
still waiting @3:50 PM
03 March 2007
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I'm back le.. quite lazy to blog for the past few days.
went to bishan to buy some stuffs but in the end, almost everyone bought something for themselves except for me. i was attracted to the hermit crabs they sold there, it's just a little stall. the crabs' shells were painted beautiful but for me, i found it very digusting because the shells were like a snail shell and some were like snails, sticking together. there is a row of the gashapon machine and 2 frogstyle products there, one is frog mobile and i don't know the "other one". i got a rocket frog for the frog mobile and a fruit frog for the "other one", the "other one" is a bigger frog that contains a middle size frog which has got a little frog in it. also saw football people there, don't who are they but i think they are famous people.
after that, went to my uncle's house to have dinner. saw the chingay de 花车 and it's really very nice. the road was block and its quite late le but still have to wait for it to pass first so when the 花车 has ended, we went down. suddenly another 2 came and i was like.. i want to go home den my uncle at the corridoor laughing lor. fortunately, we some how managed to cross the road and walk and walk and walk home.
actually, i haven't do my homework yet den tomoro going out again. i think this post is long enough le so end here le. good night.
(n_n)
still waiting @11:07 PM